i miss u too,but i'm sorry . . . :'(

olla . hehe . ble smngat nk mnulis dtg , da x leyh nk stop da. hihihi . ok lh . lau tgk tittle post ni , ad something yg ak nk smpaikn sbnanye . hmm , ak ni mmg x kn pnah bleyh lpas ngn prasaan serba salah . lau orm yg da lame knal ak , mse texting , sure dyorm akn jmpe prktaan , "sory gmgu" . . . mgkin x sume kwn ak prasan tp lau rpt ngn ak, dyorm prasan r . well , dsebabkn prasaan ni la byk bnda x settle . bnda ? bnda pe ? kih3

ak da mls jdi hipokrit . ak trus trg je la ek . 

kpd sape2 yg prnh jdi sbhagian dri idup sy , sy mmg brsyukur sbb dpt knal korm sume . x kesah la, yg pnah jdi best friend , boy friend o twin . prinsip idup sy , once org tuu da chow dri idup sy , korm x kn pnah dpt jmpe pntu msuk da utk msuk dlm idup sy lgi . tp utk certain hal, msih bleyh dpertmbgkn . bknnye sy nk prasan 'hotstuff' , tp sy mmg hotstuff pda kwn2 sy . tuu je, pd kwn sy je . bkn pd public . hehe . sy mmg akn slalu tmgu korm utk kmbli dlm idup sy tp x slamanya . lau korm ase sy ni msh lgi pnting utk korg, silakan la coz idup sy pon kosong tnpa korm . kte bleyh kwn blik mcm dlu . coz wlaupun da orm yg gnti position korm dlm idup sy , tp tetap x same ngn korm . espcially best friend la . the 1st person yg jdi best friend sy tuu , mmg dye the best la among others ! u miss me ? i miss u too ! tp ble nk kmbli dlm idup sy as lbeyh drpd best fwen tu, i'm sorry . . . :'(

uwaaa ! x tipu, ak rndu gler kt best fwen ak ! opps, not best fwen anymore ! :'( . . . knpe la sume ni jdi . ble da nk baik blik , nk lbeyh dri tu lak . hmm . x ske r cni . npe awk wt sy cmni ? ? ? stress tawuu x ? ? ? prasaan serba salah sy da stat mnguasai hati ni ! ! ! sory la , dlu kite best friend , skang pon best friend la k ? bye ~

it's been a while...

hai syg ! dh hmpir 5 bulan ak x mnulis kt cni . ase rndu r pulak . ingtkn blog ni da mampus da. kih3 . dh byk gler pristiwa yg jadi . smpai ak ponn dh x ingt . hehe . papepon, my new life as a student kat Managemant & Science University (MSU),enjoyable gler . happy dpt kwn baru, lecturer best2, suasana bljr yg bru, n yg plg pnting,pnglmn utk hidup jauh dri fmily n brdikari . ak ni, mmg x penah seumur hidup brjauhan dri family . so, dpt ase la prbzaan suasana uh . tp ak x HOMESICK tau ? haha,,

hmm , trlalu byk citer ak nk kongsi smpai ak ponn x tawuu pe yg ak nk citer . kih3 . nwei, ak ade nk share something ckit ngn korg . . . hehe

*12 signs you are falling in love*

12. You'll read his/her txts over and over again...
11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her...
10. You'll pretend 2 be shy whenever you're with him/her...
9. While thinking bout him/her...your heart will beat faster and faster...
8. By listening to his/her voice...you'll smile for no reason.
7. While looking at him/her..you cant see the other people around you...you can only see that person...
6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs.
5. He/She becomes all you think about
4. You'll get high just by their smell...
3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them..
2. You'll do anything for him/her...
1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.....

pe yg ak post ni,xde kaitn ponn ngn pngalaman sndri o pape . ak ad trbaca artcle ni, so ak share r ngn korm gak . huhu . asenye korm sume un da tawuu an ? xpe la, sje je ni . nk mmnjgkn post . haha . nk pesan satu bnda je . lau sygkn someone tuu, x yah la syg orm len ugak . sorm ckup la ye . hihi . ok lh, ak chow dlu . nnti ble de mse, ak singgah lgi utk mnulis k . daaa ~

just say it ....

"The mind doesn't choose whom you want to love. It's the heart, because it's the one that shows signs of hurting and joy, literally."

i dont know why i post this entry .  last night, my friend message me n told me about his problems . from his story, i can conclude few things .

well, as we all know, between two teens (boy n girl), there will always be a bond . and from the bond, a weird feeling will grow in their heart and tie the two hearts . however, anything wouldnt happen if they do not express the feeling . if they keep hiding the feelings, whether they 'll lose or they'll win .

if you really love someone, u should express your feeling . dont hide it . if you confess, doesnt mean that you need to have a relationship with him/her . just say it . it's not a crime to admit your feelings .

"She heard you tell her everything she wanted to hear & feel completely in love." 

backthen, expressing your feelings does not guarantee that your loved ones will be yours . but there's a possibility, maybe he/she might have the same feelings towards you ? who knows, only God knows right ? 

this is not just a reminder for you guys, but also for myself . so, let us do it together . just say it ....

i love you Daniel !

Olla ! haha . dh lme ak x update blog ni . eh, lme ke ? xde r lme sgt . haha . nwei, kali ni, ak nk story sal vacation ak kt tganu last weekend . msti korm trtnye2 kn, minah ni x pegi stdy kt mne2 ke . ciap leyh pegi vacation arg . ish23 . ak lom pegi arg r coz tarikh utk ak dftr stdy mmg lom tiba arg . so, duk kt umh je la smtra mnumgu . atuk ak yg nk bwak ak pegi olidei kt tganu . kt marang . dye ckp, last olidei b4 ak further stdy . sdeyh r plak ak ble dga dye ckp cmtu . uwaaaaaaa !

Hahhaa . sdeyh r plak . pdulikn sal ksdeyhan ak tuuu . k, ak nk story ni . otw ak nk g tganu t, ak mmg byk tdo ats keta . ak skt kpala gler . tatau r nape . aish, slalu x cihat r ak ni . ad pnykit pe bnde r pulak . hihi . so, ble smpai kt resort t, ak mmg trus landing ats katil dlm blik yg sjuk t . air cond blik t mmg sjuk gler . lg r ak ska nk mmbuaskn dri ats ktil t . haha. kul 6.30 gtu, atuk ak ajk ktorm prgi jln2 kt tpi pntai . ak mls sbnanye tp atuk ak ckp, wat ape dtg cni lau stkt nk tdo . kt umh pum leyh tdo . ak mls nk brtekak o wateva, so, kuar je la . atuk, nnk n cik su ak dh pegi jln jauh . ak x larat nk pegi, so, ak dduk kt ats psir dkt ngn blik je . mse ak dduk t, ade bdk llki ni dtg n wat sandcastle dpn ak . bdk t, umor dye 6 taun . eh, cmne ak leyh tau umor dye ek ? haaa . ni r yg ak nk story ni . hehhe

Mse bdk t ngah ralit wat sandcastle t , dye trjatuh . nsb bek la ak ad dkt ngn dye t, ak smpt la pgang dye . so,  xde r trsmbam muka dye kt pasir t . dat boy nangis la n dye trus lari, pegi kat his family . then dye cm tnjuk2 kt his mom ke arah ak . ak rsau, kot2 dye mngadu ak yg wat dye jtuh ke ape ke, ai, x pasal2 ak dserang 6t . then, bdk t dtg blik ngn abg dye . abg dye t, encem la . hahha . pdulikn sal abg dye . x pntim . ak trus r lyn prsaan, kt tpi pntai kan. ase tng je . ak ad r trpkirkn ssuatu n air mta ak mleleh . jiwang r plak . ey, mne de .bkn nye ak jwang, tp ad r stu hal yg wat ak nangis .

Tbe2, bdk lki td t dtg , n dye ckp . . .

“ Akak, knape akak nangis ? boyfriend akak tmgalkn akak ke ? “ . . .

Trkjut ak dga dye ckp cmtu . bdk kecik mcm t leyh ckp hal bf la pulak . aduyai, pesal ekspres sgt knowledge dye ni . hahaha .then, ak pum ckp r . . .

“adk ni, sape nme ? Akak x nangis la . n ble mse lak boyfriend akak tmgalkn akak , akak xde boyfriend pum dik . “

N ni lbeyh krg conversation ak ngn dye . yg tlisan clor biru t, dialog bdk kcik t, lau pink t, mine n clor ijau t, abg bdk tu . hihihihi .

“ My name is Daniel Hakim bin Affandi  I’m 6 years old n I live in Cheras, Kuala Lumpur . ala, akak nangis la tdi . Daniel nmpk . akak nk tpu ek ? Daniel tau la , mse abg kna tmgal ngn girlfriend dye dlu t pun, dye nangis gak . so, akak ni sme je la ngn abg . yg bezanye, akak pmpuan n abg t llki . tol x pe yg Daniel ckp ? “

“Oh, Daniel . em, akak x nangis la syg . just psir msuk mata akak je . wah, pndainye dye . mcm org dwasa . cmne Daniel leyh tau sal abg Daniel t ? kagum akak dga Daniel ckp . “ . tbe2 ckp bhsa standard . nk ckp ngn bdk kl kn . tp x bnyi klantan k . bdk t x caye ak orm klantan . hoho .

“ abg slalu cter kt Daniel .so, Daniel tau laa . ey, nape abg snyum2 t ? haa, msti abg admire kt akak ni kan ? trsnyum2 . mcm krang bsuk . Daniel nk g kasitau mama ! “

“ eh, mne de r Daniel . aduyai, kecik2 dh pndai2 pkir bnda2 mcm ni . ish2, x bleyh cmtu syg . x ssuai lg utk Daniel tau hal mcm ni “

“ haa, kn dh kna sound . pndai2 sgt mnyibuk hal org . x psal2 akak ni mrh Daniel . pdn muka . n ble msa lak abg admire kt akak ni ? “

“ td tu abg snyum2, x nk ngaku . sme mcm akak ni . dye nangis tp x nk ngaku . ai, korang ni mmg scocok r sgt . lau Daniel nikahkn , bru tau . hehehehe “

“err, pe Daniel ckp ni ? sje je abg Daniel snyum t, bknnye ad mkna ape2 pun . snyum t kn sdekah . dh lh syg, jgn pkir yg bkn2 k . Daniel bina r sandcastle t .ble dh cyap, akak nk amik gmbr Daniel yg comel ni . “

“ comel la sgt . nk trmunth abg dga . haa, cpt2 . 6t abg tlg snap pic korg k . “

Then, si Daniel yg comel itu trus r bina sandcastle dye t . ak ade gak jenguk2 my family, kot2 dh hilang ke benua mne . hahah . smntara tmgu Daniel cyap bna sandcastle t, abg dye tgur ak .ktorm borak2 . ak brdbar gak, almklum la, ckp ngn orm encem ni, x psal2 aty ak cair lak kang . hahha . mngarut je . pas borak2 t, ak dpt tau la yg ktorm ni same age . same mcm ak la n yg wat ak trkjut nye, dye pum akn further stdy kt tmpt yg sme ngn ak . wah, kbtulan gle . ak mmg x sgka . lg r ktorm rncak brbual . pastu, Daniel tbe2 je dtg duk ats riba ak . trkjut ak, nsb bek dye ringan je . mnje r plak bdk ni, wlaupun ak ni strangers je bg dye . hoho . upe2 nye dye nk suh abg dye tlg snap pic ktorm . n Daniel t x smena2 lak suh ak brgmbr ngn abg dye . ai, dh lbeyh ni . hoho . sblm kmesraan kmi brlarutan, ak dpt fon call drpd kwn ak . n ak tgk, atuk ak cm dh pmgil2 ak . so, ak pum mntak dri drpd Daniel n abgnye . n Daniel tbe2 je mntak no ak . sbnanye ak nk kasi no ak yg dh lme expired, tp ble tgk muka dye, cm x smpai aty r plak . so, bg je la . lgpum abg dye ckp, sng nk cntact mse duk kt u 6t . ye la sgt . yg wat ak trharunye, Daniel tbe2 je dtg pluk ak n ckp, “Daniel syg sgt kat akak . akak ni cntik la . “ ayt yg second t, ak x caye pum . ignore ayt t, x pntim pum . ak just trharu ble dye ckp dye sygkn ak t . uwaaa ! ak pum syg dye gak .

Pastu, ak borak2 ngn kwn ak kot fon n prgi kt my fmily . b4 ktorm msuk blik, ad r snap few pic . tp ak x upload arg coz camera t ad ngn atuk ak . lau bleyh, ak nk smpn gak gmbr ak ngn Daniel t, tp ktorm x smpat n Bluetooth r plak . mse amik gmbr t, gna fon abg Daniel, bkn fon ak . aduyai . harap2, ak ad jodoh nk jmpe ngn si comel t next tme . hmmm, ak mmg x jngka akn ad prtmuan cmtu n ktorm jd rpt, wlaupun x pnah knal sblm ni . n next mornim t, ak dpt msg drpd abg Daniel . ckp yg dyorm dh brtolak blik , x smpt nk jmpe . sdeyh ak, tp xpe lh . ak jmpe dye mse dye prgi hntr abg dye utk study kt u yg sme ngn ak t r . hoho . k lah, stkt ni r dlu . pnjg entry kli ni, tp xpe lh, asalkan ak puas aty leyh cter kt korm sal adk baru ak t . next time lak ak story2 lg ek . ok, papai ~

    

The ‘so-called’ date ... hhahahahahah

hoho . hai guys ! ak stil ad kt umah, kboringan mnumgu hri ak mlgkh msuk ke pst pngjian tmgi . lmbtnyer ase . ish23 . nwei, hri ni ak kuar . nk jmpe kwn ak . ktorm kuar datim tawuu  x ???? heeeeee . :p . datim ? x lah . . . ak nk datim ngn sape ? xde orm pum k . as u all know la, ak x rpt ngn mne2 laki dh skang ni . x mnat r . howeva, ad la a few yg stil kamceng ngn ak n kwn ak yg ak jmpe hri ni t, one of my close fwen r . kbtuln dye blik umh weekend ni . so, jmpe r kt kdai mkn tp x leyh ckp r kt mne . secret tawuuu ???? 6t ad orm korek2 lak ak kuar ngn sape . ngeeeee .

well, gtu la .ktorm jmpe t, it’s my treat la . lgpum mmg ak dh jnji ngn dye dh pun . so, tnaikn lh jnji t . nwei, korm jgn pkir bkn2 . ktorm close fwen je . x men r feeling2 ni . hahha . lgpum, I’m not his taste k . so xde mknenye nk ad sometime ngn dye . whahhaha . mrepek dh . ayoyo .

spanjg ak duk umh kbosann ni, dye la yg kerap cntact ak brbnding ngn orm len . so, sbb tu r ak saaaaaaaayaaaaaaaaannnnnnnggggggggggggggggggggg saaaaaaaaannnnnnggggggaaaaaaaaatttttttt kat dye . hehe . lau bley mmg ak nk share ngn korm sape dye tp x leyh r . personal sgt . hehe . dye sportim sbnanye tp xpe la, mgkin next tme, ak kasitau korm k .

ak sdeyh sbnanye sblm ktorm blik td . ye lah, dh lme x jmpe, eh2, dye lak yg dh nk rush blik u . aduyai . entah ble r plak ktorm bleyh jmpe . dh r ak ni msuk u lmbt, sure cuti pum lmbt tawuuu x . orm len dh blik olidei, ak stil kt sne . cmne la ak nk jmpe ngn kwn2 ak 6t . hmmm , pape pum . ktorm stil cntact kot fon n arap2 stay keep in touch la ye . k la, ak reveal nme dye . it’s Mr F tp t bkn nme sbna dye . t nickname dye je . hehe .

wateva it is, I’m happy coz I got d chance to meet u ! n thanks 4 d . . . . . . . . . . .  . u know wat I mean right ? trima kasih . thank u . kamsahamnida . syukran . hihi . love u my fwen ! mmmmuuuuuaaaahhhhhhh ! <3 . k lah, ak chow lu ek . papai ~

perpisahan... :(

PERPISAHAN ??? brpisah ngn sape ni ? pakwe ke ? lau orm tgk title ni, msti ingtkn brpisah ngn orm yg trsayang kn ? ya, absolutely ! brpisah ngn orm2 yg rpt ngn ak, yg slalu ad d smping ak ble ak prlukn dyorm, yg slalu bg ak nsihat n dorongn mse ak ngah down . sdeyh gler ase . kwn2 ak dh nk prgi study . mmg r dh rmai orm prgi msuk ipta, tp xde r trasa sgt coz x rpt sgt ngn dyorm . hmm, now, say goodbye to my close fwens! uwaa!

1. Nik Amani Aisyah 
- mngalami nsib yg same mcm ak n dye ni orm yg duk sblh ak dlm clas . pape, mmg slalu share with each other . ktorm p tcem skali . n mostly, blk skul same2, jln kaki . hihi . n then, jd partner wt lsen kt ykin pndu . sme2 pass n dpt lsen . hang out skali . byk r knangan ak ngn dye . ak mmg x kn lupakan dye r . ssh nk dpt kwn cmni . thanks 4 everythim Aman ! love u damn much ! dont forget me ya dear ! 6t kta ushakan utk hang out same2 k ! mmuahhhhh !


2. Husna Haziqah
- ktorm skelas slama 4 thun . mse f2 je, ktorm duk clas len2. tp stat 4, ktorm jd rpt coz dye duk sblh ak lam clas . g mne2 msti g ngan dye . alang2 dh duk sblh ak, ak share r mslh2 ak ngn dye . n dye pum cmtu gak . n then, mse f5, ktorm skelas gak n ktorm stay rpat gak . jd stu gang lg . mmg byk sweet memories ak ngn dye . thanks 4 everytim Na ! love u so much ! dont forget me my dear !  6t kta ushakan utk hang out same2 k ! mmuahhhhh !


3. Saiyidah Wajihah 
- ktorm stat skelas mse f3 smpai r f5 . mse nk dkt ngn PMR, ktorm slalu g library, g hafal sejarah same2 . stat mse t r ak jd rpt ngn dye . tmbh lak, ak dpt tau yg ktorm brsaudara . umah nnk dye lak dkt ngn umh nnk ak, so ktorm slalu r blk dr skul sme2 . jln kaki . hihi . msuk f5, ktorm jd stu gang .  mmg byk sweet memories ak ngn dye . thanks 4 everytim Jie ! love u so much ! dont forget me my dear !  6t kta ushakan utk hang out same2 k ! mmuahhhhh ! 


serapat mne pun kta ngn sseorg t, suatu ari 6t, kta ttap akn brjauhn ngn dye . ak x sdeyh coz kwn2 ak nk further study . ak bngga ngn dyorm . ak just sdeyh coz ktorm dh x leyh jmpe slalu, study cm dlu2 arg, hang out same2 . tp kna tgk from d bright side r kan . ktorm sme2 struggle utk cpai cita2, n mgkin suatu ari 6t ktorm akn jmpe blik, mgkin krja kt tmpt yg same . haa . best nye ! asalkn x share suami je la . hahha .

dyorm sume dh prgi . ak je yg stil menganggur kt umah . haha . tp x pe, my twinnie, Aisya Amira n my close fwen, Fatini stil ad . dyorm dftr lg lmbt drpd ak . hihi . papepum, ak stil ngn jeles ngan sume lpsn SPM 2010 yg dh prgi mlanjutkn pljrn ke ipta o ipts kt luar sne t . tmgal bbrapa orm je yg stil ad kt umh . bg ktorm yg stil duk kt umh ni, x yh r kta buang mse . ak akn make sure ak further study ni ngan otak yg fresh, yg dh ilang karat2 t sume . haa . mcm mne nk wat ek? hoho . revise blik r pe yg dh blaja taun lpas . lau ak r yg nk further study lam course medic, revise BIOLOGY . coz pe yg ak akn study kt ipta/ipts t 6t, sme je ngn pe yg ak dh stdy mse f5 lu . just, lbeyh detail je .

haha . x sah lau ak x ckp hal jiwang2 kan . eh, xleyh laa . ak dh x jiwang skang . dh matured ni . byarpum usia blum mncecah 18 thun, stil bdk2 r katekan, tp dh mtang ni . hehe . pe yg jd dlu, ak dh x nk ingt . sume yg jd dlu, pasti ad hikmah yg trsembunyi . mgkin ak x nmpak skang, tp stu hri 6t pasti Tuhan akn tnjukkan . ape yg pnting, skang kjar CITA-CITA dlu sblm CINTA . CINTA t prkara trakhir yg msti kta fikir, CITA-CITA t prkra utma yg prlu kta fikir . stakat ni dlu ek, ak chow lu . dh pnat brcrita pot pet kat cni . yg pasti, i'm gonna miss my fwens damn much ! papai ~

"Someday everything will all  make perfect senses . So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason "

feel like an idiot..!

" Friendship is the sweetest form of love . so, when i said i'll be your friend till the end, it's as good as i'm saying i'll keep u in my heart till the last beat "

u said like that to me n at last ??? i feel like an idiot u know ??? it's about life . sometimes, i think, it's better if we have no friends . just our family n ourselves, how peaceful our life is . i'm saying like this because now, my own friend had become my enemy n my enemy had become my friend . how beautiful the Almighty swings the condition . back then, i still need my friends because not all my friends are hypocrites n did stabbed my back . n of course i really need my close friends . i dont think i can find their replacement . i'm very lucky to have such a good n nice friends like them . unfortunately,not all my friends are like that.

" an 'ex' is called an 'ex' because it's an EXample of you shouldn't have again in the future "

there comes a time in life when u have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround urself with people who make u laugh so hard that u forget the bad and focus solely on the good . after all, life is too short to be anything but happy !

i have learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt me once in awhile n i must forgive them for that . i have so much things to be shared with u guys, but i think what i've posted above will symbolise everything . papai ~

hoho.at last., ;)

hey ! haha . syg, at last, ak dh dcide nk bli lappy mne n my choice is HP . pd dsrnye, i'm a bit dissapointed la coz xde yg clor PINK o RED . ad stu clor je, n dats BLACK . tp, it's ok la . better than BLUE . uwekk ! i dont know y la, tp ak mmg x ske clor biru sjk kcik lg . sumenye lau bley nk pink ! hehe . ak dh puas aty la . warranty 3 taun, so agk lme . haha . bleyh la lau ak nk gne ngn lsak pum lam 3 years ni . hehe . x pntim sume t sbnanye . kua234 . n this is my lappy . HP stands 4 Happy Person n i'm gonna be a happy person startim from today !

this is my lappy .! sy wt blur t, coz x nk korm tgk spec2 dye sbnanye. 6t korm cmment lak. haha

 
well,mse ak pgi PC Fair t,ngah survey2 t, ak ad r trlnggar sorm mnsia ni . mse t, my parents ngah borak ngn kwn dyorm, trsrmpk kt ctu . so, ak ni, byase r, dh trlnggar orm, sure la nk mnta maaf . actualy, bkn slh ak pun . ad bdk mne yg trtolak ak smpai r ak trlnggar mnsia t . ak angkt mka, coz mnsia t lg tmgi drpd ak . trkluar r dri mlut ak, 'oopss, sory . x sngaja .' then, ak dga je, 'it's ok far' .. ai, bkn ke t my nicknames ? cne mnsia t bley tau ? plik bin ajaib tol . mhu x mhu, ak kna tgk gak sape mnsia yg ak trlnggar t . n i c ...

same prson ? u gain ? wey, please la . dh xde mnsia laen ke yg ak bleyh jmpe slaen drpd kau ? sbsar2 malaysia ni, knape kau ad kt klntan ? n byk2 daerh kt klntn ni, knape kau ad kt kota bharu ? n byk2 tmpt kt kota bharu ni, knape kau ad kt KTC ? aduyai . lteyh r ak mcm ni . ak prgi mall, jmpe ngn kau . ak prgi vacation kt gambang pun, jmpe kau gak . ak prgi PC Fair pum jmpe kau gak . ai, pnt r ak mcm ni . orm slalu ckp, lau asyk trsrmpak ngn sseorm t, ad jdoh la t . eeee ! please ! xde mknenye sume t .

wherever i go, i meet u . does it symbolises anything ? ? ?
of course not ! your part in my story is OVER ! i'll rmember u as my past ! we're not friend anymore ! n i cant find any kind of relationship that can tie both of us . so, let's pretend like we've never known each other before . . .

eee, x mnat r post jiwang2 ni . t cme luahn hti ak je . xde mkne pape pum . bab2 jiwang ni, kta lpekn lu . 6 thn akn dtg, kta fkir hal feeling2 ni blk ek . (lamenye,bley caye ke ni?) hahah . x ksh la . ak cme bleyh mrncg . lau smpai seru lg cpt drpd yg ak jgkakn t, no cmment la . hihihi . ok lh, NURFARHAN LOKMAN dh mula mngarut . so, btter stop kt cni dlu ya . papai  ~

confused... ;)

syg, ak prgi PC Fair kt Kelantan Trade Centre (KTC) td .ngan my girlfrens . x rmai sgt orm . pak cik2 n mak cik2 je yg ad . mayb ngah survey laptop utk kgnaan harian dyorm kowt . hoho . n mostly, yg seumur ngn ak la . lpsn SPM, cri laptop . ktorm survey, lbey krg 1 jam gtu . byase la, ktorm ni, nmpk sgt blur sal spec2 laptop . ye lah, bdk2 mda lg . hahha . so, mostly,promoter2 yg ad kt ctu bg pnrangan yg pdat la kt ktorm . ciap promote no fon dyorm arg . ish, ingt orm nk bli dyorm ke . hahha . lau dyorm promote kt orm2 yg dh keje, yg tau byk sal laptop ni, sure dyorm kna tibai . so, ktorm yg brmuka suci n x brslah ni r yg jd mgsa . ktorm just angguk je, wat2 gaye cm interestd gtu . hihi

well, slpas ktorm survey sume2 t, ad la few lappy yg ak brknan . design cntik, tp ad la lak spec dyorm yg x best . yg kurg . lau lappy yg ad spec2 yg bgus t, bruk je design dyorm t . eeee, ssh tol . 4 sure la kta nak lappy yg cntik n brkualiti . mslhnye, xde yg mmuaskn aty . aduyai . yg mne stu ni ?

ACER ????

HP ????

ASUS ????

pape pun, ak srhkn sumenye pd my prents r . coz dyorm yg kuarkn dwit utk bli lappy, bkn ak . so, kta ikt je la . lau mmilih sgt, last2 mlepas . x dpt lgsum . haa . mcm mnsia gak . x leyh mmilih sgt lau nk cri psgn idup . trlalu hrapkn yg smpurna, last2 melepas sumenye . hihi . pehal la ak ni, ttba je ckp sal psgn idup ni ???? ish23 . mgkin kpenatan yg amt sgt, sbb t mngrut je ni . haha . k lah, ak nk rest lu . doakn je la, spya ak leyh decide, nk bli yg mne . ok, papai ~

woo..haha! STPO !

olla syg ! haha . lme gler ak x updte blog ni . mcm dh x brnyawa ak tgk . (jap,blog brnyawa ke?) hahhah. wateva lah . nwei, ak bkn sje2 x nk updte blog ni . ade la sbb musabab ak bwat mcm ni . trlalu byk sbb smpai x trtulis . last entry yg ak post, sal ak blank tatau nk tlis ape kn . haa, mmg ak blank pum . entry2 sblm t, sal part2 jiwang t sume . eee, ak jd mnyampah r lak ble bce entry2 yg ak post tu . ei, jd minah bnga lak ak ni, nangis2 t sume . uwekk, t bkn dri ak yg sbnanye la . mmg r x dnafikn, ak ni mmg mnje ckit, (mnje ckit ke?asenye trlbih mnje dh) .. hahhah . mnje pun, tp ak x cengeng la . ish,geli ble ak bce entry2 t . uwek!

so,msti korm tpikir kn, lau ak geli ngn entry2 t, nape x remove je ??? hmm, sbb ak nk jdikn t sbg rjukn pd mse hdpn . hihi . jdkn pngjrn, spya ak x jd mcm t dah . hoho . skang,kbykn blogger post sal dyorm pnye plhn, nk further study kt ne . well, ak pum lpsn spm cm dyorm, n ak pun akn further study kt ipta/ipts cm dyorm gak . tp ak mls r nk story cm dyorm t sume . coz bwat mse ni, ak stil x leyh nk dcide nk further stdy kt mne . ble ak dh dcide, ak share ngn korm ek . hhaahhahha . bkn ape, lau ak share skang, mne tau ble ak dh wat dcision, tmbul ase mnyesal lak coz plih dat ipta/ipts pas bce entry ak t . so, better ak kasitau korm ble ak dh prgi ke ipta/ipts t . well, bya lh ak jd plik ckit . orm len,sibuk nk pkir sal preprtion nk g u, ak ni,mls r nk pkir2 lg . ase cm syg r lak nk tmgalkan umh . skang, ak STPO . 'Saya Tunggu Pinangan Orang' .. hahhaha. jd suri rmh je . bgus pe, ble dh ad prsediaan yg ckup, sng la ble dh kawin 6t . xde la hubby ak mmbebel coz x pndai itu, x pndai ini, n bla234 . jap2,ak mlalut ape ni? cyap ckp sal kawin . walaweyh ! umur x ckup 18 thun dh brangan nk kawin . glak tol pmikiran ak ni . hoho

aduyai, ase cm byk lg yg ak nk kasitau korm, tp dlm next entry r lak ek . ak nk kuar ngn my girlfrens ni . later, ak update arg .  papai ~

p/s :jap, ai t kn, my mom ckp kt my dad, 'abah,lau blik biru (blik ttamu) t kta psg kayu kt dinding t sume, cntik gak .ye lah, ble kakak (ak la t) kawin 6t, br nmpk cntik . aish, my mom dh kasi green light dlm diam ke??? hhahahha melalut je . papai ~

blank..!

dh lme ak x update blog, trlalu byk cite nk share, trlalu byk bnda yg jdi, last2, i'm blank !

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bye!

aku bnci ngn dri aku sndiri ..

.

pic ni, adk ak yg snap . grm gak ak ngn bdk t, tp xpe lh . at least ak bleyh tgk keadaan ak mcm mne tnpa ak sdri . huh . smpai ble la ak nk jd mcm ni ah ? wake up la . x kn nk hnyut cmni je . ak kna cri something yg ak bleyh wat utk mngisi msa lpg ak . erm, adk ak dh offer ak utk bljr mengait . ak x pnah wat pum sblm ni, tp ak nk try lh . msti kna cuba bnda bru kn .

kwn ak ad ckp, bwat mse ni, llaki hnya bleyh djdikn best fren . utk jd lbeyh drpd kwn, x bleyh kot coz ssh nk caye kt mne2 llki skang ni . hahaha . xpe lh, slagi trdaya, ak akn cuba senyum .. ok, papai ~

tiring day.. 21 April 2011 ..

di saat org laen tgh bz wt prprtion utk intrview, ak duk trperuk kt umh . haha . mmg pdn mka ak . slh isi biasiswa utk MARA sgt . hihi . bya lh, yg lps t bya lps lh . ak x nk pkir dh . nwei, dh 2 hri ak mnyepi . ak mnyibukkn dri ak n ak x byarkn ak duk trmnung . lau x, mmg ak akn jd down blk arh ..

em, mse hri khmis bru2 ni . ak tmankn my aunty g kt Lembaga Tabung Haji, dye nk kluarkn wang b4 dye g umrah . mse ktorm smpai kt sne t, no glrn 149 . my aunty's no, no 176 . gilak ! jauh t,sure lme gle mnunggu . my aunty lak g park keta dye kt dpn MPKB , bkn tmpt parking pun . ak dh ckp, try g cri parking len r, tp dye x dga . s0, bya je lh . mse ak ngah mnunggu uh, ak tgk r kt slipar ak, sje je . then ak tgk kt sblh, spupu ak yg duk kt ctu . . ak nk share pe yg ak nmpk . .

bdk yg brumur 4 thun, adk Naqi ..

trgelak ak tgk . dh r ak ktawa kuat gler, smwe org pandang . aduyai . ak mmg x leyh nk control r, lwak gler kzin ak ni . dye wt mka slmba je, x prasn org ngah ktawakn dye . xde prasaan smguh la bdk t . aduyai . then, tmgu nya tmgu, smpai la turn my aunty . 3 mnt cmtu, ursn dye slesai . ak ase sejam lbeyh mnumgu hnya utk ursn slama 3 mnt . erh ! buang mse je ase . ktorm pum kuar r dri bgnn uh n prgi la kt keta . n ni yg ak nmpk . . .

Honda City cik su dikunci tayarnya

haa, kang x psal2 kna knci tyr . ak dh ckp, jgn parking kt ctu, tp dye x dga . ak tau la, ak ni just ad lsen L je, tp ak br test undg2, ak tau la kt mne blh ltk keta, tp cik su pndang remeh pndpt ak . kcik aty tau ! haha .. kbtln ad bench kt ctu . ktorm ddk r . bench t, dh pnuh, coz cik su n 2 orm kzin ak duk kt ctu . so, ak cri bench len r . ddk r kt ctu, byk gak mmt sewel yg knyit mta, mayb dyorm skt mta kowt . sewel ! then, tbe2 ak ase bench yg ak ddk t, brggar ! wey, ape ni ? psing kt blkg, ak nmpk ad orm gle ! bj dye koyak, tmpal sne, tmpal sni, dye pndang je kt muka ak, then dye blah . mse t, ak ingtkn ak dh mti dkrjakn orm gle uh . hah . pucat mka ak mse t, kzin ak ckp r .

ktorm tmgu sejam kt ctu . cik su ak tkot nk g byr kt MPKB t, s0, kna tmgu tok abah ak dtg luh . pastu, ktorm prgi la kt MPKB t, n smntra mnumgu cik su n tok abah g sttle byrn t, smpt r snap pic . .

with Naqi n Najmi

 lps settle smwe t, ktorm blk umh nnk ak . then, ak g amik kzin ak yg bby t kt nursery . jge la si cumel t 4 jam, ye lh . xde orm len dh yg blh jge dye . nnk ak pun x lrt nk dkung dye, brt bdk tu ! ni lh, few pic yg ak smpt snap . . .

dye ngantok dh ni ...

tdo dah ...

mlm t, ak blk kmpung . pas mkn2 kt sne, blk umh. smpai kt umh kul 12 lbeyh . pnat gle, tp ak happy . at least, ak mmg x ingt lgsum kt dye hri t . sbb ak mnyibukkn dri ak ngn byk bnda . mksdnye, everyday ak kna mke sure yg ak bz n ad hal utk dibuat . k lah, enough . ak x kn lupekn 21 April 2011 sbg hri yg plg mmnatkn bwat ak . . . ~

stress..!

tak pernah pun terpikir oleh ku

tak sedikitpun ku bayangkan

kau akan pergi 

tinggalkan ku sendiri

begitu sulit ku bayangkan

begitu sakit ku rasakan

kau akan pergi

tinggalkan ku sendiri

di bawah batu nisan kini 

kau telah sandarkan 

kasih sayang kamu

begitu dalam

sungguh ku tak sanggup

ini terjadi kerna ku sangat cinta

inilah saat terakhir ku

melihat kamu

jatuh air mataku

menangis pilu

hanya mampu ucapkan

selamat jalan kasih

satu jam saja ku tlh bisa 

cintai kamu di hatiku

namun bagiku melupakanmu

butuh waktuku seumur hidup

satu jam saja ku telah bisa

sayangi kamu di hatiku

namun bagiku melupakanmu

butuh waktuku seumur hidup

dinanti ku

lagu ni, xde kaitn ngn sape2 pun . xde kaitn ngn kisah ak, atau kisah sape2 yg ak knl . it's just a song . tp based on this song, ak jd trtnya2, ble ak dh xde nnti, akn ad ke orm yg akn ttp sygkn ak mcm dat guy in this song ? well, ak x nk pningkn kpla pkir sal hal ni tp ble ak dga lgu ni, ak ase sdeyh n trharu . how i wish i'll be like dat lucky girl . . .

huh . actually, skang ak mmg ngah trtkan thp max . honestly, ak x sbr2 utk tmgu april ni hbis . c0z spnjg bln ni, byk bnda brlaku n m0stly,smwe t x dijangka . k lah, ak ad bbrpa psnn utk bbrpa orm ...

to Mr A,

i'm happy coz i get the chance to know you . you have move on . i will move on too . starting from today, i dont want to know any single thing about you . we better act like we have never known each other . thats all from me . thank you for everything .

to my twin ,

3rd of sep 2006, you came into my life n fortunately, that day was our birthday . so, at that moment, the only thing that came across in my mind was, 'he is my twin' . starting from that day, i love you as my twin n will always do . n i hope you will do the same thing after this . forget about yesterday, think about tomorrow ya dear .

to my best friend ,

before we became friends, i was eager to know you because i know you r a special person n i think i dont want to lose the chance to be friend with you. days after days, we became closer n share everything with each other . i love you as my best friend n will always do . i hope you will do the same thing to me after this . forget about yesterday, think about tomorrow ya dear .

to my ex-best friend ,

you came into my life n asked me, 'could you please be part of my life?' .. i was very shocked n surprised when i heard that . yet i thought that you were unique n i'm happy to be friend with you . i do love you as my best friend n still do . you decided to leave me because of that 'feeling', but you still wait for me until now . dont do that . dont ever wait for me, it's not worth it . i hope we will become closer n please be my best friend back . i need you ..

uhh . leganya . haha . dh jd orm mlyu blik . nwei, ak tau la english ak broken, tp ak x ksah lh . bkn nk wt essay utk SPM pun . whaha . ak hrp, orm yg brknaan tu, akn bce entry ni n bce psnn ak utk dyorm tu . 0k lh . i think i need a break 4 few days . ak nk off dlu . when i'm ready, i'll come back . papai ~

aaaaaaaaaaaaargh !

0k lh. 2 hri lps, ak dh bwat entry jiwang kn . x nk dah . pnat r jd 0rm jiwang2 ni . abis tnaga je . stu bnda lg, x nk r jd cengeng . mcm bdk kecik je . bodoh tol ak ni. hihi . nwei, ak bwat entry ni, bkn nk mngata dri sndri sbnanye . sje je . well, ak nk jd 0rm bru . nk brubah totally . hri t, ak ckp je, tp x bwat pun . tp mulai hri ni,ak akn cba lah . biarpun ak tau ssh nk bwat . uwaaa !!!!

ak sdr, ni mgkin blsn Tuhan pd ak sbb ak dh byk kli rject orm tnpa fkir prsaan dyorm . skang, ak sndri direject n ditndang kluar drpd hdup dye t . adooiiii !!! skt la kna tndang wei, trsembam muka ak ni . calar balar dah . tp yg luarn calar, blh sapu ubat . ak x ksh coz ak dh byase trjatuh ni . cuai tol r . tp yg ak x thn, calar kt bhgian dlm r, kt dlm hti ni . xde ubat beb . sob3 . adoiiii !!!

hri ni, kmbar ak, tbe2 bwat scandal dlm fb .

' Nurfarhan Lokman is in a relationship with Benz Ilman Danish '


gilak tol r mmt t . orm dh pkir plik2 sal ktorm . pd hkiktnye, xde pape pun . ktorm kn kmbr, s0, smpai mati pun, akn stay as kmbr . ak x smudh itu mlupakan sseorg . bkn dlm mse 14 hari . mayb 2 o 3 thn . o mayb 4 d rest of my life ak akn stay mcm ni . hahahahha . klau korm bce entry ni, msti korg ingt ak ni x hbis2 ngn ksah sdeyh ak t . msti korg ingt, ak x leyh trima knytaan . 


sbnanye, bkn mcm t . ak blh trima knyataan n ak redha . mgkin ini yg trbaik utk dri ak . tp byase la, mnusia . mlut bleh je ckp, tp nk realisasikn pe yg kluar dri mlut t, mmg ssh . apth lg kaum hawa, hahaha . orm ckp, lau nk lpakn sseorg t, try la sibukkn dri . bwat bnda laen . jgn biarkn dri t trmnung . mslhnya, ak mmg xde keje skang ni . trperuk kt umh je . intrview pum xde . keje pun x . nk kuar pun, xde lsen . last2, duk trmnung, mulalah nk nangis la, ape la . erh !!!


ckp sal xde lsen ni, ak nk share smething la ngn korg . ak ad bwat keje gler bru2 ni . tgk la gmbr ni ek . tp jgn bgtau my parents ! hahahaha 

ngn aishah !

hahaha . ak ase ak dh x bpe btol r due tga hri ni . nwei, lantak r pe pum orm nk ckp . ak akn cba lakukn yg trbaik utk dri ak sndri . korg smwe doakn ak la ye . k lh, dats all from me . papai ~


p/s : kpd awk . awk, sy tau awk dh move on . happy dgn idup awk . awk x yh lh hiraukn sy lgi . stu je yg sy mnta dri awk, tlg doakn spya sy bleyh move on mcm awk gak . one more thing, ape pun yg awk dga psal sy, sy nk awk tau, smpai hri ni, sy stil sygkn awk mcm dlu . x prnh brkurg . 0k lh. papai !

12 days ....

today is 18th april . 18 - 6 = 12 days right ? 12 days . i feel like it has been 12 months after the day . honestly, i dont want to remember the past . let it be . i have to move on . it's just a chapter in the past . i will not close the book . just turn the page because i will definitely need the past to be my guide to face the same problems in the future .

i can say that i want to do this, and then do that . the question is , am i able to do all that ? why is it so hard for me to forget you, huh ? answer me please la . actually, i dont want to forget you . i just want to let you go same as you let me go out of your life easily . i cannot do anything right now . i'm just able to pray to God to give me strength to face all this alone and become my self again .

last night while surfing the internet, i found these tips . . .

ten ways to love 
1 . listen without interrupting 
2 . speak without accusing
3 . give without sparing
4 . pray without ceasing
5 . answer without arguing
6 . share without pretending
7 . enjoy without complaining
8 . trust without wavering
9 . forgive without punishing
10 . promise without forgetting


are these tips useful for me now ??? there's no use at all . maybe, if i found these tips earlier , they may help us . no no no ! no need to regret anything . i just want to share the tips with other people , including you ? (not really) hahaha . i want you to be happy even i'm not part of your happiness . i dont want to hate you . i dont want to blame you . it's all destined like this . i choose to love you in silence because in silence, i find no rejection .


huh . when people walk away from you , let them go . your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you , and it doesn't mean they are bad people . it just means that their part in your story is OVER . maybe your part in my story is over , i've lost you , but i dont want to lose other people that i love . so, i pray to God, may all people that take part in my STORY will remain forever in my story and there will not be an expiry date for their part.  

credits to u..

M . A . H . ... thanks 4 all ur advices, ur 0pini0n n ur m0ney . ye lah, awk col sy, mmbebel kat sy bpe jam . hihi . i really appreciate it br0 . credits to u . i help u, u help me . kte sme2 tlg stu sma lain ye . love u fwen ..

 

 

pak cik !

ak ni, gya brckpnye, happy smcm je . tp kt dlm ni, 0nly g0d kn0ws ...

 

sick of crying

tired of trying

yeah i'm smiling

but inside i'm dying 

live must go on ...

stlh 4 hri mnyepi, i'm back . n sbnanye xde sbb pum utk ak updte dis bl0g . sje je . drpd ak duk trmnung mlyan bnda2 yg x pnting, bek ak luah kt cni je . nwei, ak pun bkn nk cpta pblisiti, tlis mcm2 kt cni, nk suh 0rm bce . n0 n0 n0 ! sblm 0rm anggp ak ni jnis 0rm yg ske jaja ksah idup kt 0rm len, 6t ak nk bwat bl0g ni jd bl0g private n 0nly certain pe0ple yg ak prcye je r all0wed t0 read it . tp tatau ble la ...


well, ak x plan utk syg kt sape2 . klau bleh, ak pum x nk syg kt 0rm t . tp dh dtkdirkn dye lh 0rm t, x blh nk wt pape r kn . tp ak ase ckit2 t, ak dh blh lpekn dye k0t . [ ye la tu . ckp je . ] ssh nk bwat . tp ak akn cba . ak x nk dh dliht sbg s0rm gdis yg cengeng n lmah . mayb, dat is my real me . i'll try t0 be str0nger . c0z lau trus-trusn tnjuk yg ak xde smngt nk idup la, n bla23, 4 sure la akn ad 0rm yg ktawakn ak n 4 sure dye happy tgk ak mcm ni . n0 n0 n0 ! ak x kn bnarkn maruah ak dpijk bgtu skali .

 

i'm n0t a perfect pers0n . sdar dri r kn . klau 0rm tgk ak, sure dy0rm akn prasn r ciri-ciri ak ni :

hitam

gemuk

pendek

hodoh

bodoh 

haa . ak x prlukn 0rm len r utk tfsir smwe t . ak sndiri pum bleyh nmpk . hahaha . tp x kesah lh . t semwe cptaan TUHAN n yg psti smwe t dh ckup cntik padaNYA . xde yg lbeyh pntim drpd t kn . mnsia mmg x kn pnah puas ngn ape yg dye ad . ak akui, ak pum mcm t sbb ak mnsia . hihi . 

aduyai,ak still x jd 0rm yg n0rmal ni . dats y ak merapu x tntu psal nih. pape pum, ak cme bgtau realiti . bknnye sje2 nk mngata dri sndri . ak dh pnat idup mcm ni sbnanye . h0bi ak skang, trmnung . n tbe2, ad je air mta yg mngalir kuar . eee!!! ak gli r ngn dri sndiri skang ni . c0z i'm n0t dat type 0f pers0n . yg ak thu, dlu, h0bi ak, ktwa . ish23 . dh jauh ak mnyimpang . wee . where r u NUR FARHAN LOKMAN ???

"awk, sy x nk kwn ngn awk n x nk amik tau sal awk dh . awk kn dh ad 'kwn' bru, x prlukn sy lg . utk pngtahuan awk, sy dh xde rmai kwn dh skang ni . just ad bbrpa 0rm je yg stil jd kwn bek sy . dy0rm jdikn sy pnting dlm idup dy0rm, dy0rm sygkn sy n sy prcyakn dy0rm . sbb t sy nk kwn ngn dy0rm . yg pntim, sy x nk kwn ngn awk . dats all . jgn hbungi sy lg ye . papai ~ "

ni psnn ak utk sse0rg la . tp ak x ckp ak tuju kt sape2 . sape yg trasa t, pndai2 la tke ur acti0n k . hmm, d0nt cry la mek . aduyai . ak ase air mta ak akn hbis lau ak trus-trusn mcm ni . haha . pdhal, ak tau air mta t x kn hbis . ssb t ak nk kuarkn air mta ak ni . wii . mngarut je ak ni . 

ak x ksah . rmai 0rm dh tmgalkn ak . tp ak ttp brsyukur sbb stil ad kwn2 yg sygkn ak n slalu ad d smping ak, x ksh lh mse sng atau ssh . yg plg pntim, ak ad MY SUNSHINE !

i love you my SUNSHINE!

0rm ckp, ksh syg blh luntur, blh pudar n hilang . tp ak tau, ksh syg ak utk my SUNSHINE x kn prnh brkurg n hilang bwat slame2nye sbb dye mmg lyk utk dpt ksh syg drpd ak . pd 0rm yg dtg skjp dlm idup ak, s0ry arh . x slamanya tmpt t dikhaskn utk awk . 0k lh. dats all . papai ~

:'(

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smpi hti awk tmgalkn sy .dlu awk jnji nk jge n lndngi sy drpd ssiapa pum . even mse kta brcnta dlu, awk x bnarkn pun kwn2 awk brborak ngn sy . sy mmg xde kwn llki laen slain drpd awk . awk lh stu2 nye llki yg sy knl . awk lyn sy ngn baek . sy mmg rse dsyangi . smwe bnda yg sy bwat, msti awk ambk tau . shri x msg ngn awk, idup sy ase mcm x lngkp . sy dga byk dsas dsus yg mngtakan awk ad prmpuan lain, tp awk brsngguh tgaskn kt sy yg hnya sy stu-stunya orm yg awk syg . dan sy prcyakan awk, sbb sy tau awk sygkn sy n x mgkin awk tpu sy . 4 thun kta brcnta . sy setia dgn awk . sy x pdulikn orm laen sbb sy tau hnya awk llki yg sy nk dmpingi seumur hdup sy . awk pun ckp, kalau ad jdoh, awk nk khwin ngn sy . stiap kli awk ckp cmtu, sy ktawa sbb t smua lmbt lg . tp awk mrh sy, awk ckp awk srius n awk sntiasa brdoa spya hbgn kkl shngga ke akhr hyt . ble dga smua jnji awk t, sy agk rgu2 utk prcya pd mlanya . tp ble awk brjnji yg awk akn cba prthnkn hbgn kta n awk akn sntiasa sygkn sy, sy prcya . n sy gak brjnji ngn dri sy yg sy akn syg awk s0rm shja . tgk pe yg awk buat skrg . awk tnggalkn sy tnpa ckp pape . sy cba hbungi awk, tp awk ignore sy . awk tkar no fon bru . sy tatau pe slh sy . knapa awk tpu sy ?????

pon pon. agk2, ksah idup sape la kt ats ni ??? hahahaha . bkn ksah idup ak ek . ni ksh idup smwan yg ak blh anggp mcm kakak kndung ak sndri . kesian kt dye . evry night dye col ak n nangis . ak yg dlahirkn snsitif n mdh nangis, nangis la skali ngn dye . tiap2 mlm kt0rm cmtu . ak x nk dye nangis dh . x kn ad ksudhn c0z ak tau ak x mmbntu kakak ak t (sbb ak tau nangis je, bwat dye tmbh sdeyh ad r).. hihi . s0, ak nk cri cara la, mcm mne ak nk tlg dye spya dye blh kmbli jd kakak ak yg ceria n slalu bg nsihat kt ak ble ak ad mslh .

t la realiti idup . orm llki mmg mcm t kn . evry sngle word yg kluar dr mlut dyorm x blh dprcyai lgsum . t la yg ak blh simpulkn bwat mse ni . dyorm cme tau main-main kn prsaan orm pmpuan je kn . pntingkn dri sndiri . x brhati prut . byk lg ak nk ckp tp ak rse x prlu . c0z smwe llki tau pe skap yg ad dlm dri dyorm t . x yh lh ak critakn plak kt cni . 

mmg stiap mnsia t dtntukn jodoh msing2 olh Allah . n kta pum tatau sape jodoh kta t . n mgkn mmg btol pe yg orm ckp . kta akn dprtemukn dgn orm yg slh sblm dprtemukn ngn orm yg dciptakan utk kta . ak x mnylahkn tkdir klau pmpuan mmg prlukn llki dlm idup dyorm . tp bwat mse ni, ak rse pmpuan blh idup tnpa orm llki . x prlu BOYFRIENDS ! just girlfriends n families! dats en0ugh !

p/s : ak hrp, ak x mnrima nsb yg sme mcm kakak ak ni . . .

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knpe sy mst trsrmpak ngn awk smlm?????

tgk mka awk wt sy ase brslh je..

awk m0ve 0n la ye..

sy dh m0ve 0n..

lgpum, dh lme kn 'prstiwa' t jd..

x yh la awk ingt2 lg..

huh..

p/s: beb, smlm ak trsrmpk ngn mnsia yg pnah jd 'kwn' ak. ksian ak tgk dye tp ak x tgur r c0z ak mmg xde kaitn pape dh ngn dye t. arap2, dye blh 4get the past n cntnue his life. amiin. papai ~

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well ! hahha . 0rm laen mgkin dh updte bl0g dy0rm pass result kuar last week . tp ak x r . x ready arg nk share pape sal rsult . tp alang2 ak dh update ni, ak kasitau je la . mgkin sstgh 0rm ckp ak ni x brsyukur ngn rsult ak . tp hkikat sbnanye bkn mcm t . ak dh ckup brsyukur . tp bygkn la, lau k0rm brada dlm kl0mp0k mnsia yg bijak2 . x ke rse dri ni trlalu krdil ???

0k lh . ak dpt 10A 1B je . A+ pum x byk . s0, x leyh nk bngga ngn rsult ak tu . tp kakak angkt ak ckp....

" far, result far tu dh 0k sgt2 . lau nk dbndingkn ngn org laen yg dpt kurg blgn A dr far . n far gak ptot brsyukur c0z far xde A- . mksdnye, mrkh A yg far dpt t, mmg A yg brkualiti la . bkn A-, c0z bg akak, A- t sme je cm B+ n sbliknye, B+ t sme je cm A- " 

ya, mmg btol . ak mmg pt0t brsyukur . tp 0rm len x fhm . cmni lh, ak st0ry ek . h0nestly, ak mmg target utk dpt straight 11 A's, tp ak x trlalu brhrap c0z spnjg xam ak mse f5, ak asyik dpt 10 A je . s0, ak dh trbiase x dpt full A ni . tp yg wat ak ase d0wn, sbb kwn2 yg rpt ngn ak, smwe dpt straight A's . k0 blh bygkn x prsaan ak ??? ak x jeles 0 mrh dy0rm dpt cmtu, c0z they all deserve dat . just, ak malu la ngn dy0rm . ak x leyh kwn ngn dy0rm cm dlu lg .

even, kwn yg agk rpt ngn ak mrgkap sdara ak pum dpt straight A's . mmg ak malu gler r ngn dye . abg ak plak ckp .

"nsb baek far dpt 10 A je . lau x, bankrupt abg nk blnje."

ngeks t0l r abg ak t .  wateva it is, ak still happy . parents n family ak pum dh bngga ngn rsult ak t . ckup r lau dy0rm happy, biarpum ak tau dy0rm happy spya ak happy . x kisah lh smwe t, yg pntim, yg lpas biarla lpas . ak x nk ungkit lg . en0ugh b0ut rsult . i'm d0ne with it .

moody...

hmm . cayarm! ak xde mood gle ai ni . ase cm x nk bgn je dr td0 tu . pkirkn hal rsult . then, pkir hal t, hal ni, hal nun, n byk hal lg la . ai ni ak x tgk fon lgsum . kt mne la fon ak t . mgkn dh trperusuk ke bwh ktil k0t . lantak r .

aduyai. cmne ni??? pe prlu ak bwat ni??? lteyh la idup cmni . ak x leyh face smwe ni s0rm2, then pd stu mse yg sma . ase cm ad batu je yg mghmpap kpla ak ni . ak 'pgsan' n 'k0ma' .. xde ase nk bgn dh ..

blurrrr .....

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wateva arh! k, ak ch0w lu . papai ~

well ~

cayarm! i'm back! haha. err, act ak pt0t post this post smlm tp dsebabkan ak kletihn yg amt sgt, s0 ak p0st ari ni je la ye . xde beza pun . huhu . 0k lh . let ,me start it ....

pg tu, ak bgn cm byase r . kul 8.30 gtu . ak jnji ngn my fwen nk jmpe kul 10 kt prkrgn stadium muhammad ke IV c0z ad KARNIVAL PENDIDIKAN MARA . well, ak ,mls nk bgn awl2 ni . x minat . hehe . s0, instead kul 9.45, bru r ak mulakn misi mncri bju n tdg utk dig0s0k . skang, ak prefer pkai bju krg c0z t lbh 'trtutup' ... whahaha . cyap2, my m0m suh mkn nsi lu lak . act x nk c0z byase la, i'm on diet, tp ak x snggup nk dgr my mom brleter, s0, truskn je la mkn . t pun x abis . ak suh adk ak hbskn . kua2 . lps mkn, tgk2, ad 5 msg, 3 missd calls . wah, ak dh trlmbt sbnrnye . kul 10.20 br ak brtolak dr umh . hihi :p

smpi kt sne, jmpe ngn my girlfwens . ktorm pun mlakan misi mngisi borg2 utk mndptkn brochur n free bags ! t yg pnting . bygkn r, ad 2 khemah kt sne, stu khemah t ad 40 booth . gilak! ak ngn my gang enjoy r isi form2 t sume coz ad misi pntim utk mndptkn free bags ! hihi . pas je 10 booth, ak ase cm nk pgsan je . pns gla kt dlm t . same goes to my twinnie . s0, kt0rm pum kuar n p bli air kt luar t . 15 minutes aftr that, kt0rm msuk blik n mlakn blk r sesi mngisi f0rm2 itu . ak ase cm dh jd nnk tua, bongkok ! ye lh, every booth, msti kna tnduk kt meja t utk isi borg . lau yg ad sdiakn tmpt ddk t xpe r . BAD POSTURE! tringt plak pe yg ak blaja dlm bi0l0gy dlu . hihi

evry booth yg ktorm prgi, kt0rm trpkse brlk0n utk mnat sesuatu bidang yg kt0rm x mnat pum sbnanye . well, byk booth yg x pr0m0tes medic tp dsbabkn free bag yg 'ditawarkn' agk mnrik, s0, pura2 mnt ngn mndlm r pe c0urse2 yg ad kt ctu . hehe . lps 35 booth lbeyh krg, kt0rm dh x snggup nk brpura2 lg c0z ase bdn cm dh xde tnaga, ktorm plih2 je la booth yg mne brknan . ad stu booth t, promotes c0urse yg brkaitn ngn marine . mne r kt0rm mnat ! tp dsbabkn pr0m0ter t , abg yg sgt cute itu, kt0rm pum isi la gak borg t . whaha . byk bnda yg kt0rm bwat ai ni, x ikhlas pum . ad niat trsmbnyi . ish2 . x baek tol kn . x kesah r, aslkn kt0rm happy . t lbeyh pntim ..

abis r0und stu khemah, kt0rm msuk lak khemah yg stu arg . mmb0snkn r kt ctu . ad stu booth t, bkn pr0m0tes uni 0 k0lej pum, tp dy0rm nk galakkn kt0rm melabur . haha . saham! ak ingt arg pe yg uncle t ckp kt kt0rm . "muka cantik x cukup lau x melabur" ... wah, pe kaitn t? kih23 . lantak r . last2, kt0rm kuar dri khemah itu kul 2.30 gtu r . x sngka r lme sgt kt0rm ad kt krnival t . hmm . then, kt0rm dcide nk g kb mall . s0, try r nk naek bas . ble ad bas dtg, pmndu bas t plak ckp, "em, bas ni x lalu kot kb mall . lau bas laen, sure lalu" .. wah, bgtu hmpa kt0rm . last2, kt0rm jln je la ..

kt dpn pntu msuk kb mall t, nmpk rmai 0rm . ingtkn ad prgduhn 0 pe c0z ad byk guard kt sne . last2, dpt tau . ad datuk siti nurhaliza upenye . dye dh nk blk pas buat promosi utk SimplySiti kt kb mall uh . yg pntim, ak smpt r tgk datuk siti . tp ble mngenangkn kpnatan yg amat sgt, xde r happy sgt pum . dh r pnas . tp xpe la, at least i'm sweating n dats good 4 me in 0rder t0 l0se my weight! kre exercise r tuu ..

pas s0lt, kt0rm g mkn kt mc d . mmg tmpt fv0urte dh t . lau g kb mall, sure g mkn kt mc d . ak ad nmpk 0ne gang yg dlunye, ak agk rpt ngn dy0rm, tp dsbabkan ak amik kptusn utk x kwn ngn mne2 laki dh, s0 ak duk diam je la . x tgur r tp ak tau la dy0rm cm tgk2 je kt ak . mcm x puas aty je . kt krnival td t pun, ak ad jmpe gak ngn guys yg pnah jd kwn ak tp ak x tgur r kn . lau tgk cre dy0rm tgk ak, mcm nk mkn ak je gayanya . ish2 . pastu, kt0rm plan nk men b0wlim, tp rmai sgt la 0rm kt ctu . byase la, ari sbtu . ari plg rmai 0rm ad kt kb mall uh . then, kt0rm jln2 psing kb mall t je ...

pas kul 5, kwn2 ak blk . my dad still x dtg2 arg . s0 ak duk je kt stage kt tgh2 kb mall t . lgpum, stage t skang dh brfungsi sbg tmpt prsnggahn utk 0rm yg x jmpe bench nk ddk . haha . then ak ad jmpe ngn bdk plkn . dy0rm nmpk len r . mka yg dlunya ptih mlepak, tp skang dh mcm cl0r air teh tarik . kih2 . x bek r ak ckp cmtu . at least, dy0rm cl0r teh tarik, ak ni cl0r nescafe 0 je . hahaha . act, ad stu incidence yg mmbuatkn ak x tng smpi skang, tp xpe lh. maybe ak share nex tme c0z ak x nk 0rm yg trlibat anggp ak ni HIPOKRIT lak . ye la, dlu ckp len, then bwat len . hmm . sbr je laa ...

lau nk dkira la, dgn kletihn yg ak alami smlm, spatutnye ak dh lme trlena . tp dsbabkn ad smtim yg ak pkirkn, mmbuatkn ak x leyh td0. n guess ak td0 kul bpe smlm? kul 3! act, ak mmg xleyh td0 tp ak pksakn gak mta ni spaya trtutup . lau ak mkin lyn prasaan ak ni, almtnye, x td0 la ak . mslh t r, then result plap tmgal bbrpa ari arg . aduyai . stress ak cmni . well, this is my life n dh trtulis mcm ni . s0 ak x spat0tnye mngeluh . arap dri ini lbeyh tabah utk mnghdpi ujian n dugaan mndatang . 0k lh syg, g0t t0 g0! 6t lau ad pape, ak update arg . tp tgk rsult r, lau k0 tgk ak snyp snyi dh pasni, mksdnye rsult ak d0wn r t . arap2, ak bleyh update k0 lg, s0 lau nk cmtu, d0akn ak n kwn2 ak dpt excellent rsults smwenye! amiin ~

kenapa???

kenapa kita selalu mencintai seseorang yang tak pernah mencintai kita?

kenapa kita menolak cinta seseorang yang amat mencintai kita?

kenapa kita selalu mengenang seseorang yang tak pernah ingat kita?

kenapa air mata selalu mengalir hanya kerana seseorang yang tak akan pernah membahagiakan kita?

kenapa????

kenapa???

kenapa???

kerana....

mencintai seseorang tak bermakna kita harus memiliknya

cinta itu lebih bermakna apabila kita melihat orang yang kita cintai tersenyum bahagia bersama orang yang dicintainya

perasaan cinta itu tak akan pernah hilang apabila kita gagal memiliki orang yang kita cintai

cayarm! hahaha.. msti ko trkejut nape ak p0st sal cinta ni. act, aku dpt msg ni drpd 'adk' ak. sje nk share. ble ak dpt msg ni, ape yg brmain di fkiran ak ni trjwb. tp ape yg brmain di fkrn ak ni, hanya TUHAN je yg tau. kih234. ak bknnnye jiwang, sje je. hahaha

babe, i got flowers. tp tatau sape bgi. s0, ak buang je la. x kn nk smpn lak c0z ak mmg tatau sape yg bgi. ei,0rm t aspect ape drpd ak arh? x fhm tol. plik2 r 0rm zmn skang. drpd ak pningkn kpla ak spe yg bg bnga t, bek ak mkn cklt je..cklt ni cayarm...

coklat ni,ak dpt drpd kwn bek ak,wajihah. dye blnje mse kt0rm hang0ut ai snin lpas. huhu. 0k lh cayarm, keboringn sbnrnye. sbb t ak mnlis ni. cian kt k0, x di updte,sepi je. hahha. ak ch0w lu ek. 

ape pun pndgn orm kt ak, ak x pduli. lntak dy0rm r nk ckp ape. cayarm, ak setia pd yg satu n x kn curang! hahaha.. tanak nangis2 dah! pnat! ak update nex tme lak. papai~

i'm sorry but i have to do this..

cayarm ! hmm, mish nye kt cayarm ! nwei,ad bnda ak nk story mory sbnarnye. huhu.

ai jmaat pg tuu, ak ad dpt col drpd smwan yg ak bleyh anggp sbg kwn yg agk rpt r gak ngn ak. dye col ak 2 jam lbeyh. dga tzkirh n bebeln drpd dye. hmm. ad kta2 dye yg still ad dlm ingatan ak ni. ak x kn prnh lpekn..

"mungkin awk rmai kwn. sy tau tu. tp awk x penah terfikir ke, pe sbb org ska ktuk awk kt blog awk yg lama tu? awk kna sdar lh. pnyebab nye adlh sbb awk rmai kwan n esp kwn2 llki. org bleyh anggp awk playgirl sbb bnda ni tau. awk sndiri tau kn, u're friendly n easy going person. so, sape yg x nk kwn ngn org cm awk? awk fkir2lh. sy rse, awk ptot ptuskn sje prshbtn awk ngn llki2 tu. dyorg smwe ad niat laen kwn ngn awk tuu. sy tau,mungkin awk anggp sy bz body, tp sy cme bg pndgn. awk nk bwat atau x, tu hak awk. sy x pkse..."

well, ble ak dgr pe yg kwn ak t ckp,ak ase cm pe yg dye ckp t ad kbnrnnye. n u know what? ak dh ptuskn prshbtn ngn smwe kwn2 llki ak. mgkin, ko akn ckp,ak ni mdh sgt trpngaruh ngn kta2 orm. tp ak rse, dh lme ak ptot bwat bnda ni. b4 this, dh rmai 0rm nshat ak, tp ak ign0re je. skang dh tba msenye.. nwei cayarm, byk la kta2 'pdas' ak dpt mse ak msg n bgtau smwe kwn2 laki ak. n slh stu drpd nya...

"pe tjuan ko bwat mcm ni ? nk brgrau pun, tgk hal la. bab2 ptus kwn ni, aku x ske r. ko tau x, b4 ak knl ko, ak mmg dh cop, bdk2 SMKA n sklh arb smwe nye sombong. x maen r kwn ngn bdk2 sklh byase ni. xde pgangn agma yg kuat mcm korg la ktekn. tp ble ak jmpe n kwn ngn ko, trus brubh pndgn ak trhdp korg. bg ak, korg x mcm yg ak sngka sbnarnye. ak happy n bangga bleyh kwn ngn ko. tp ble ko bwat cmni n nk ptuskn fwenship cmni, ak ase ko ni HIPOKRIT !!! ko prgi r kwn ngn pmpuan ! jgn kwn ngn mne2 lki dh. ko anggp,ktorg kaum adam ni mcm 'ssuatu' yg prlu dijauhi ek? mcm parasit pd ko? ko tau, ko akn dpt blsn bwat ktorg kaum adam cmni. tp ak just nk ingtkn stu hal je. stu mse nnti, ko akn khwin. n ko akn khwin dgn kaum ADAM ! bkn kaum HAWA ! blah r !"

woo. pns aty ak ble dpt msg tu. aduyai... pas dpt msg n rsp0n2 drpd 'bekas' kwn2 ak tuu, ak nangis r babe. brt aty ak ni rsenye. ase cm ak dh bwat kputusn yg slh. tp b4 ak bwat kputusn tuu, ak dh wt solt istikharah. n asenye pe yg ak bwat ni mngikut ptunjuk yg ak dpt drpd yg MAHA ESA. 

papepun, dyorg smwe dh baek kt ak slme ni. ak ad sweet mem0ries ngn dy0rg smwe. especially, ngn mnsia2 yg ak dh knl sjak ak stndrd 6. ktorg sme2 share mslh kn. ak ase brslh sgt2. hmm... smpai skang, ak stil x leyh ase lega pas ak amik kputusn utk bwat cmni..

i'm sorry guys but i have to do this.. :'(

nk baby sdiri!!!

cayarm ! smlm ak td0 lwt,kul 3 gtu. s0, pas smyg sbuh t, ak smbg td0. n ak bgn kul 12 ! haha.. x lwt sgt tuu.. byase2 je kn. ble ak bgn tu, pning kpla r. then, tatau np wt pe, s0, ak bkak tv. tgk r snetron tu, tp yg ak nk highlight kt sni, lgu tma cter tuu, BIARKAN AKU JATUH CINTA.. w0w ! liriknye, kna kt btg idung sdiri.huhu.. xde r, tpu je.

ko bygkn r yang, ak duk umh s0warm2,snyi gtu. jiwang la jwbnye. tatau la,sng2 je air mta kuar. plik r, pdhal ak x pkir sal pape yg mnyedihkn pum. nk wt cmne,nangis dh jd kbiasaan lam idup ak skang ni. wh0h0.. instead kul 4.30 gtu, my m0m c0l, ckp my aunt np amik ak prgi umh nnk ak. ak pum x fhm npe, tp just get ready je la n tmgu my aunt...

smpai kt umh nnk ak tuu, ak nmpk kzin2 ak. byase la tu, ai ni kn ai last skul b4 cti sminggu, s0, dy0rm ngah main r. ilep2. then ak nmpk baby, Nur Aisyah Humayra. uwaa !! dh 1 bln ak x nmpk dye pas dye lhir c0z ak jrg2 g umh nnk ak. dh bsr dye upenye. dh r muke cute gtu. aduyai,ak yg ngah sdeyh mse tu, trus happy tgk dye. n ptg t, ak yg jge dye. dkung dye, riba dye, bgi dye mnum ssu, pkikn bju n sluar dye n maen2 ngn dye. x leyh nk tmga dye. nk g slat pum ase brt aty. i love you syg !

instead kul 9, my uncle nk bwk bby blik. 0h g0d ! mse tu, thn je tau btapa brt aty ak nk lpaskn dye blik. np nangis asenye. mmg ak sbak sgt smpi ak prgi hntr baby smpi dlm keta dye. muke dye sdeyh je, cm np nangis gtu. lau bley, ak x nk brpisah ngn dye ! dye je yg bleyh bwat ak happy cmtu ! ntah ble plak ak bley jmpe dye. n yg wt ak tmbh sebak,ble ak babai dye, dye pum snyum kt ak. trus ak lri msuk umh n nangis dlm toilet !

apuk,ble kakak bleyh jmpe ngn apuk lg ? i need you syg ! idup kakak dh xde mkna ni. hnya apuk s0warm je yg bleyh ceriakn idup kakak lg..

i love babies ! ble la ak bleyh nk pgang ank sdiri ????? hahhaha

keboringan....

cayarm! akibat keboringan,ak tatau np wt pe. s0, ak mnulis kt cni. hmm...

mmmmmmmmmm.....................


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cayarm, tdi ak ad bce blog smwan. ish,bhagia nye dye tuu.. ad 0rm syg kt dye. n dye pum syg kt 0rm tu.. klau la ad 0rm syg kt ak cmtu..happy nye!!! uh, pe la ak ni. ad byk 'KALAU' dlm fkirn ak ni. sbnrnye, x baek lau kte brklau2.xpe lh yang.ni cma pe yg brmain dlm fkrn ak..

kalau la ak bleyh...

• dpt lsen skang,nk bwak keta
• dpt lappy bru
• dpt fon bru
• dpt teddy bear bru
• dpt bju bru
• dpt mka yg bru. (yg cun r, bkn cm skang)
• bwat semue orm sygkn ak
• bwat baek ngn semue orm
• bwat msuh ak bbaek ngn ak
• ilangkn prsaan dngki 0rm kt ak
• dfend dri ak ble dkutuk n byk lgi la lau ak nk sbut kt sni..

kalau la ak bleyh bwat smwan t syg kt ak sbgaimna ak syg kt dye... hahaha

merepek dah...ad0i..
ak 0ut lu r cayarm..
bec0k, ak updte arg ek..
nk happpy!!!!! ~